Sometime during senior year my roommate had a week of 'mantra' searching. She decided at some point that she needed a cheer in her head to keep her going and remind her of what was important in life. In the midst of her full out search she would send me snippets of things she'd found, one of which i sort of took on as my own. "May i be filled with loving kindness. May i be at peace." So it sounds kind of lame, but its done me well this last year or so.
But now i'm in search of a new mantra. Something to embody my life in Japan and after college and to brace me for the ever shifting road ahead. Something along the lines of 'Change is a good thing," or "to everything, turn turn turn, there is a season..." Well you get the idea. Thus i have been avoiding writing this past week as i attempt to write a new, optimistic, life-embodying mantra for myself. Unfortunately i have failed, and tonight i realized that i am officially mantra-less.
But here is what i do have: Life is all about change. I am six months out of college already. Six months!!! And i am living in Japan. Everyday is a challenge and most days i can meet the challenge and see everyday as fun and adventerous too. And next year, i wont be here anymore, i will face another change, and where it will take me (or more importantly, how i will pay for it!) i dont know. But i know that i am lucky because throughout college and now in the months after college I have buttresses all around me (okay, cut me some slack, i am studying for the GRE). At home i have a family who never cease to help me, care about me, love me, surprise me, support me, and send me packages from home :) I have friends throughout the world now who listen to my stories, who laugh with me and cry with me, and who never judge me (even when i admit that my top two favorite Christmas albums are Amy Grant's Home for Christmas and Hanson's Snowed In). And in Japan i may not have dozens of hands to hold, and may find the lack of hugs shocking, but i have a few wonderful souls who touch my life and help me to get through every day and to do the little everyday things.
So really, with or without a mantra about the changes in life (like the metamorphosis of a caterpiller...) i just want to say thanks and i love you.
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Em,
We love you too! Best of luck finding your mantra in India. But with or without one, you are on the right track, enjoying every opportunity, every soul you come in contact with, every new experience, every adventure. How we miss you, our darling girl!! Gotta go work on that next package!! Love, mom
Wow
You continue to amaze me with your great attitude, gift for prose, and sense of adventure. I miss you and love you tons.
Keep on blogging.
Love Dad
We'd best trek to Rishikesh then...yoga capital of the world.
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